I am soooo bored right now ::snoozes:: I actually have worked on Novanator's art trade some ^.^ the idea for it has been planned out and I outlined the picture but I have to do homework now >.>; which isn't good, and I feel so unmotivated. I mean I have so many ideas for things to do to draw to write but osmewhere between my head and my hands it kinda gets mixed up or something, especially when I draw. I can always picture this beautiful picture in my mind but then when I try to draw it it kinda...dive bombs >.>; and I find pictures so unfufillings sometimes to because I work so hard to only capture one moment in time. Yet when I write, I feel so dumb, so silly. I don't know why...I mean it sounds good when I read it to myself but when others read it I feel so self concious. I am so un skilled >.< it annoys me to no end. I just want to make people appy, to know that what I do cna make a difference but how can writing anything change people? how can workings change anyone. I look at our world and I feel sad because I know deep deep down everyone has the capacity to do anythingthat they set their mind to, and I have so much mind, I just can't set it to anything. I mean I could offer alotm ore to deviantart, I could submit my writing everyday, I know I have plenty of it, but, I don't know I don't want people to laugh at me, or get mad at me. I just really want people to enjoy the things I do, and I do't know what to do to make that happen. Maybe I can convince myself to post some of my works of lterature, post my poems and everything. But I never know if I really should, since I don't know how people will react to what I say. Sorry for being so pessimistic everyone. I'll go in my corner now.